Two drivers quit.
At the same time.
Which means that two trucks, at the end of this week, will be at a standstill.
It actually happened about a week or week and a half ago. I’ve been so busy doing damage work and dealing with the subsequent tensions and hysteria in the office… that I haven’t even had the heart to write about it.
One of the drivers is a man I’ve been working with for 1.5 years. I will miss him.
The other one sucks and it was just a matter of time before he went. He’s been around 5 months or so.
I do believe they purposefully quit at the same time.
We were ridiculously worried because it is hard to find a driver nowadays with the proper qualifications, especially with the approaching winter.
But luck seems to be threading through the air.
So far, there is definitely one man who came up and seems worthwhile to train. It’s still very rocky, though… still, we definitely were not expecting to have another driver for at least 2-3 months. So this is good.
I’ve been developing new ideas and am going to be focusing my ideas through the winter. By next spring, there will be a new company opened and a functioning website (finally….).
But I’m not interested in business.
I’m doing this because it’s a way to hurdle through the next year.
Sometimes, I wish I was interested in business. Because I’m not that bad at it. I know how to get people to give me more money and, with that tactic, I’ve literally increased the profit of my current employment business by 30-35% over the past year, perhaps a bit more. It’s just a matter of perseverance and will.
In other news,
tomorrow’s the day. A new phase of my life plans is beginning. Today I will complete some last minute arrangements and tomorrow… well, tomorrow has a wake up time of 6 am with a full damn schedule.
I’m not interested in business but I need to use the tactics of business in order to jumpstart myself into my new life phase.
I am going to be treating book writing like a business.
Let’s take Nora Roberts, for example.
Nora Roberts is a famous author who writes dozens and dozens of books a year. Does she write well? No.
Let’s amend that to a hell no.
What is her net worth? 150 million.
Because she treats book writing like a business. She sits at a desk from 8 am to 5 pm and writes.
You can read any Nora Roberts book and predict the end of the book in the first three chapters. I commend Nora for constantly writing the most cliche pieces of shit books possible. I don’t know how she hasn’t gone insane from the cliche-ness of it all, I really don’t, if I had to write what she writes… oh god, how miserable I would be!
But does that stop people from buying her works? No.
Look, man, if there’s one thing I will be good at… it’s writing.
That’s literally all I have going for me.
I’ve consistently scored in the top 99% of english literature, writing skills, and reading comprehension in the entire country of America for my age group (since age 7). I’ve won a first-place award at my university for a psychology paper and speech I gave! Like. I’m good. I’m even good at speaking - which many people aren’t good at! I’m highly empathetic. I understand things by just getting tastes of room atmosphere. And I have the potential to be great. I should stop trying to sabotage myself by giving into the fear of failing.
It’s okay to fail. In order to be great, you have to be good! In order to be good, you have to be okay! In order to be okay, you have to suck!
I can write a better book than Nora Roberts.
So why don’t I?
because I have so many what-if’s in my brain that it’s enough to get me to forget about it.
It’s not logical though. Because if all I have is my life to showcase what I can do… and if my own brain is stopping me from showcasing what I can do based on a fear of failing… then don’t I have to override my own thoughts? Am I not failing already by refusing to try to do something I know I WANT to do? If, in twenty years, I am still debating this in my head… isn’t that already a plunge down the rabbit hole?
So why not just try?
If I don’t win, why not try again?
What else do I have to do?
Which is why, temporarily, I am going to treat book-writing like a business until I can get over this ingrained fear of my own fingers and what they will type out.
Let’s start over.
Hi, tumblr, I’m Yvette (e-vet).
I quit university when I realized that my schooling was getting in the way of my education. I was a junior. I was a biochemistry major.
Now I’m working a full-time job of reconstructing my own brain framework.
(in addition to an actual full-time office job, hehe)
and in 3 months time, I will look forward to telling you that I have finished my first book.
okay back to my day job.
30 more minutes left on the clock.